*GASP!!!*

steve has blogged. it's must be a great day.

i found out that the contacts i've been using weren't the right prescription, which would explain the insane headaches i've been having over the last few months. i thought i was just tired and stressed, and not sleeping, enough. nope. the doctor gave me new contacts last night and - voila! - i can see and no headaches. they dilated my pupils, so everything was crazy blurry for most of last night. haha..i couldn't even really see the line where i was supposed to sign off on my insurance. i can see!!!!!

austin powers is pretty funny. i was in a pretty silly mood last night, being blurry-eyed and all, so perhaps that's why i found it so entertaining. so if you're in a funny-haha-silly mood, then go see it. ;D

world youth day. my goodness. it was amazing. there were definite points of misery during the 100 degree heat after walking 7 miles and then some to get to the pilgrimmage site and the being woken up by a thunderstorm (complete with lightning) at 6am in the open field where we had no tent, no umbrella, no poncho, warm clothes or shelter within a mile radius...but more than that, there were soooo many wonderful experiences and blessings that looking back, who cares that i couldn't cool down or that my legs ached so bad i didn't think i'd be able to move them the next day or that it downpoured on us for like 3 hours? walking a mile to the bathroom and seeing groups of 100 people, all from different countries, dancing and singing and praising the Lord...being united in worship with 800,000 people from all over the world was a pretty amazing thing. and watching the blue sky take over the dark clouds as the pope began mass was pretty cool, too. it was vast. i don't know how else to explain it.

it was awesome.

it hasn't even sunk in, how much i took in this weekend. my heart just feels really full and i want so badly for everyone i know how much love there is for them from our God. yeah...ours. =) He is present.

i've always wondered how people can eat the same thing over and over and over again. like my mom. she's completely happy eating leftovers until they're completely gone...but i always thought that that's just what you do when you're a parent. haha. but i was proved wrong when i found out that eric can eat cereal and tuna and turkey sanwiches for his whole life and never get bored. and then there's martin. he is the taco bell king. he could eat taco bell bean burritos every day for lunch and if taco bell burned to the ground, i don't know what he would do. hmm...perhaps there's a simplicity factor that i'm missing.

now i am not a juice drinker. at all.

however...

nantucket nectars has the best orange mango juice. i love it. and it's part orange juice (otherwise yucky on its own) which is a big surprise. perhaps it's the mango. i love mangoes. i'm on a mango kick...i had a mango smoothy in chicago last sunday and it was like eating a mango from the philippines (which those of you that have had mangoes from the philippines know that they are infinitely better than the ones you find at meijers and krogers and, yes, even hillers). maybe this is just a phase cuz it is, after all, summer...and summer means an abundance of fruit that you must take advantage of before the winter months take it all away or make it expensive. i digress. my point my point...hmmm..i guess i don't really have one except that i enjoyed juice today. =)

it's almost 11pm and i still have to finish a report and it must get done tonight. i haven't even done anything since i left work. man..all i want to do is sleep, and i can' t even get 10 minutes of napping in. i hate that in order to succeed you need to make your job your life, and i'm getting a good dose of that and not enjoying it one bit. the people at my work that are higher up are up there because they pull in crazy hours and and spend hardly any time with their families. and i suppose they don't really feel their social life is lacking because they're all friends with each other and then friends with each others' friends. it makes my mind spin, cuz i always had school friends and then my friends friends. always separate. and work is kinda the same. i have work people that i eat lunch with and then i have my friends friends when the work day is over. maybe i'm being suplada. but then people at work are always talking about their fun times when they drink beers and get drunk, and i'm not into drinking beers and getting drunk. i wonder about those people that need to drink beers to have a good time...it's sorta like high school again when drinking beers is like the coolest thing ever. but who knows? i'm just procrastinating.....

argh...i hate hate Hate HATE stupid project managers!!! so mean. it's called COMMUNICATION. that's how you get projects completed effectively and efficiently and still come out a nice guy. but don't ask me, cuz i'm the stupid junior engineer you can blame it on, right?? i need help. ugh.

i'm in the i'm-so-tired-my-world-is-literally-spinning-mode.

note to self: must find a way to minimize driving and take advantage of carpooling (aka me not driving, hehe).
translated: move closer to work or work closer to home.

the next month or so of weekends is gonna absolutely kick my ass. i can't wait. but i'll probably hop on jeyi's i-hate-mondays-bus pretty soon.

the big world is still very small: eric goes to college and becomes roommates with porta who moves to chicago and plays soccer and makes a good friend named rico who is really good friends from college with janet who i happened to grow up with playing the piano. and steen and porta are moving two seconds away from each other.

and sydney's place is DOPE. hi, four story condo complete with roof access for building parties. ahh..reminds me of viscount...

word of the day:

perdition. n:

1) entire loss; utter destruction; ruin; esp., the utter loss of the soul or final happiness in a future stat; future misery or eternal death.

2) (Christianity) the abode of satan and the forces of evil; where sinner suffer eternal punishment.

how sad would it be to meet this end in the name of revenge? not worth it. in the end you always have Him.

i've come to terms that it is simply not possible for me to get anything done during the two hours after lunch. i have so much work to do, but i don't want to do it cuz i'm still in the learning process and i hate sucking before getting better. it's uncomfortable. can i just go to sleep? and if not, can i just leave to go to the art fair? it's only 20 minutes away. my stupid office manager is having a mandatory pow-wow for no real or good reason for THREE HOURS today after work. as in until 8:30. YUCK.

i smell like mongolian barbecue. i feel like there's this cloud of mongolian barbecue smell engulfing me and offending everyone i come in contact with. so i'm sorry if i see you today and you have to smell me smelling like mongolian barbecue. i' m going to go home as soon as i can so i can change my clothes and scrub away the smell. =P

boo. i think i just lost my last blog. maaaan....something to the effect that i need my very own karaoke mikes...the ones from the philippines that already has the songs on chips in the mike and hook up to your tv or vcr with a regular pin. and i have to go to bed. i spent most of today watching a walk to remember on dvd. that movie is just so friggin endearing. i love it. i'm a cheeseball and i totally don't care. =P to bed i go..one a.m.!! aghh...

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how gorgeous is it out today? i love this weather...sunny, warm, slight breeze, no humidity. after yet another failed attempt to have a meal with chrissy i grabbed lunch from chinese food (haha..that's the name of the place!! actually..i just found out it has a real name, but the outside of the store just said chinese food really big.)...anyway...i grabbed lunch and ate at hart plaza on the riverfront. soooo nice out!! the seagulls came a little too close and were a little scary....i was afraid they were gonna try and eat my food. i don't like seagulls. or pigeons. they're like the rodents of the birds. every since that pigeon attacked us during a site inspection. =\ i think i'm gonna go home now. i'm volunteering at the ice cream social at my church tonight. for some reason, it's my favorite thing to volunteer for. i think cuz everyone's so happy cuz their eating ice cream sundaes. =) woohoo..the boss just sent me home. i'm out.

itchyitchymosquitobiteseverywhere.

must..

not...

scratch.

itchy itchy....yuckkkkkk!!

when you have a blog-worthy thought but share it with someone who reads your blog before you get a chance to blog your thought, does that then make the thought un-blog-worthy because it's no longer new and fresh?

i had a thought..and now i completely forgot what it was. don't you hate when that happens? it's like a brief glimmer of genius flashes and vanishes before you can record it. i've lost many eight counts that way. and test points. ha. maybe i'll remember it later.

this is ridiculous. who can work today? and working on friday? forget it. no one's gonna be here. except, of course, my manager who's crazy. not bad crazy but crazy enough to show up on friday to know whether or not i'll be here. and we're having and office bbq today to be followed be a manager's meeting. who's gonna get any work done? =P

happy 4th of july!!

p.s. kimmie seated lindsay (sp?) hunter last night at benihana. exciting, huh? what is it about famous people?

ever try surprising someone but they figure it out and make it blatantly clear that they know what's going on and completely take all the fun out of it? even if some things got slipped, why would you tell the supriser(s) before the event? it's like "hey...i know you probably worked really hard at trying to make this a great thing for me, but i'm gonna tell you that i know to prove that i guessed and i guessed right cuz i love being right". ugh. this is stupid. i suppose i just don't understand why you wouldn't keep it to yourself and turn the surprise around later? does that make sense? anyhow..i guess it's just disappointing when you don't get the reaction you were hoping for...