too much stuff is going on in my head. i'm starting to get that overwhelming feeling of having too much to do. i thrived in that feeling all through college (and high school and middle school). i have since learned to relax and take time to just hang out with people. i think what i like most about not being super busy is not having to mentally check things off in my head and think about what's next and what do i have to do to be ready for the next thing...and instead i get to focus on my family or my friends and what's going on with them and if they're happy or sad or in between.

in a nutshell...these last few months have made me really evaluate where i am with my family and God and myself....and i've been preparing myself to leave my extremely wonderful family to start a life with an equally (if not more) wonderful man. and a part of doing that is really cherishing the moments that i am at home and i can spend time with my family....it gets hard when i'm always thinking about that phone call i forgot to make and the thing i was supposed to do a week ago and when i was gonna find time to pack or do laundry. so i guess i'm really thankful that i didn't schedule myself to death after graduation the way i did in college. eric used to ask me what i wanted to do with myself after graduation....what am i passionate about? what do you want to do that's not work? and all i could answer was that i really felt God calling me to spend time with my family, spend time with my friends..really be there for them the way a good friend should. it felt silly at the time, because being that not busy felt lazy to me. who knew that He was getting me ready for the big change that will happen in two weeks.

TWO WEEKS!!!!

i am very excited. wheeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!